You know, the day before my appointment to get on Testosterone I was up all night crying out of fear and guilt, and sent this to my Girlfriend about my feelings.
My feelings mainly came from how I and other trans men are treated by the LGBT community. Unnormalize this.

I know speaking out on this is considered controversial because demonizing men and masculine aligned people is always seen as good but.. it results in this. I fight so no one else will have to feel anything similar to this.

I was on tumblr one day and saw some trans dude break down due to his treatment.
"Im sorry
Im sorry
Im sorry for taking resources from trans women.
Im sorry... i should just detransition.
Im so sorry.
Im so unlovable. I should die. You are right"

That just.. broke me. It honest to god broke me.
Why did everyone collectively decide it was ok? Why does speaking out against our foul treatment for being trans masculine mean we hate women?
Why are we not worth protecting? Worth speaking up for?
Why?

Why do I hear stories of detransitioners who only detransitioned not because they arent trans but because of how the queer community treated them for being trans masculine?
Why is it socially acceptable to be awful to us?

Why is it when we talk about our trauma there's always someone who jumps in and tells us our oppression is invalid so we should shut up?

Why is it so rare that someone who isn't trans masc speaks up for our behalf? Is it because they don't care or are scared they will be treated poorly for speaking up for us too?

When people say "trans lives matter" why don't I feel like my life matters to them too?

Why

Why

Why?

Why??

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For those of you that were disregarding my and other trans masculine's people's concerns and truama until you saw screencapped proof of this, why?