I wanna confess something today .

There was no one such as " Siddharth Rai ". He was a fictional character made by me , a girl , 16 year old then

I lied about my name , gender and age.
Alot of more lies for which sid already got exposed .

1/15

But the way i was in dms with friends , I was "myself " .
No lies there.

What I did is horribly wrong and no one should do it .

I don't want to justify "here" either cause I may seem a maniac or a person with " issues " rn.

2/15

I made friends like Atinsha , Nidhi , Maya , Zinni, Tahmeed , Jay , Divya , Elio , Suhu , Rafiha blue and so much more

Who trusted sid like anything
Even after that " kaand "
I couldn't bear knowing that I am lying em all

3/15

On 22nd of may , I told the truth to Atinsha( who then let nidhi , tah , maya ,divya and some more know ) cause I couldn't see her like that and it was pretty ugly
But we got better later and I am thankful for a sister like her ever since then.

:)

4/15

Ishi and divi found out in their own ways and contacted me saying they knew the truth .

The ones who were close to me already know and they forgived me cause they knew my intentions wasn't to hurt them but obviously ended up hurting cause the way was very very wrong .

5/15

These people didn't call me out cause they were kind enough or felt like they it would be too much for a 16 year old

But wasn't it too much for a 16 year old to committ these kind of things in the first place ?

Quite a paradox

6/15

If we show each and everything about us here then why not the dark side too. It's no point creating an image and leaving .

1 month ago I was shit scared and more selfish about saving my as*

7/15

Thinking what would be the consequences and why should I even let people know
Should run away

But as nights passed after 22nd May
There wasn't a single night where I didn't regret what I did

8/15

Kept asking myself " why ?"
" How do I make this right ?"
"How do I unhurt the people I hurt "

" How do I make people who trust in other people realise it's possible to truth on others ..let me make it up ."

Maybe I cant.

Woh sab sirf regret tha
Yeh reality
9/15

Ofcourse it's not in my hands and idk the purpose of dis thread anymore

Ik none of us would doat I did yet I saw so many of us getting exposed for this or that

Comparatively smaller mistakes

This thread is for those who will even " think " of doing something like this
10/15

Don't.

It destroys people around you and it will give you sleepless ,numb nights

It will make you lose yourself
It will make people who trust in other people easily hurt themselves

Are they a fool to trust you..

I certainly did hurt sentiments more than ik

11/15

Ik you all won't do this and me writing threads on this would be a hypocrisy but still if you ever think of doing this or are doing this or will do

Dm me
Ik how you feel
Khudko ruin matt karo oar na he dusro ko

12/15

More than that I did bad to some ppl out of the fandom for whom I try to make up personally in diff places every now and then but it doesn't work out at times but I know I will bade hoke .

13/15

I am really sorry for everything .

I am not the person I used to be anymore and I will never do this kind of thing with anybody ever again

Just know this

14/15

I have got nothing to lose this time cause I realised there's nothing bigger than losing yourself

Which I already did.

- Sid
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15/15