so if i had a thing when i was 15 and the other person 20 that consists of 10 different occasions of actual intercourse 7 of those 10 times at least (both rough numbers, as this was now 10 years ago, and I'm now 25 and just questioning as possibly having caused me any direct harm

- i've always felt like i was just as much a part of this as the other person) is that considered generally as me being a victim of csa or is that something else? and does the fact that i was willingly participating in the arranging of like, going to the persons house and -

- everything, does that make any difference? this is really hard to post even on this anonymous twitter. if this is a yes i don't really know where to go from here

also noting that i know this may sound ridiculous but if this is like, unarguably something that caused me harm in someones opinion if i can know why i feel like i should be blamed as well for being willingly engaging this relationship as the minor when this was going on..

and that i don't know if i feel like it traumatized me or anything i mean, i've always kind of shrugged it off until now like, oh 5 years isn't a big difference and they were held back as a senior in hs so they were 19 and turning 20 towards the end of their 2nd senior year-