Hi pride is almost over I've spent years not knowing how I feel about myself but I feel like at this point I'm more so trying to convince myself I'm cis than I am actually unsure but I know if I keep doing that I'll never be comfortable and I want to feel better but I'm also--

very scared of being wrong and potentially burdening people with my uncertainty or with changes in how I'm referred to.

I have a lot of my friends referring to me as Jude and using masculine pronouns for me now and once I got over the initial discomfort of opening up about how I feel I think it has started to make me feel a bit better around them but it's so easy to be scared. I wish I could-

confidently say how I feel and be proud of myself but I can't yet. And despite all of that I still have made more than one drawing related to it just so I could not post it anywhere or show it to anyone. I'm considering posting those in this thread because it relates to it.

Also I know I don't usually publicly vent or dump much about how I personally feel but I want to because on this account I've previously identified as female and a lesbian and I don't want to say I'm anything I'm not or identify in a way that makes me uncomfortable so it seems-

better to be open about it for my own sake