i don't know if i should but a tw but i will anyway,,

tw// mention of s**ual a***ult

almost two years ago, when i was assaulted,, i didn't really mention it to anyone and i dealt with it alone for a bit,, during this time i made a choreography video about it to express my (1/?)

feelings about it and how the other person made me feel,, ive come a long way since this video but a lot of people don't know how bad it was for me,,, yet somehow, a video i placed all of my emotions into has become my most viewed video,, i'm bringing this up right now to (2/?)

tell you this,, whatever you're going through, please channel that energy into something creative,, not only can it help in some way but it helps to healthily get rid of those negative emotions,,, for those curious, here's the link to the video: (3/?)

for a while, i guess i was kinda trying to tell my story through the choreographies i made,, but no one would've known, and they didn't, not until i had the courage to say something,,

cut to the same time the following year,,, i posted another choreo relating to it (4/?)

when this choreography came out, i had grown from the situation, yet it still affected me,, instead of fear and anxiety, this dance gave me emotions of bitterness and anger,, and again it became one of the most viewed on my channel, linked here: (5/?)

today,, the situation still makes me anxious sometimes, even though it was so long ago, i have to live with it and thats okay,,, maybe one day ill fully get over it, but for now the situation shouldn't dictate my life and the guy who did it to me shouldn't make me scared,, (6/?)

yet he still kinda does,,, especially when he'll go around saying he was falsely accused,,,

despite all this, im glad i have you all, and thank you for reading this long thread,,, moral of the story is, you can turn your pain into art and make something out of it (7/7)

fin.

real quick ;;;; currently tearing up bc both videos i mentioned in this thread were posted almost exactly one year apart,,, it's kinda crazy,, two choreographies with the same story behind it end up being exactly a year a part,,,,

i love you all. thank you for hearing me out. ♡