i never weighed in on last week's "Picky Eating" discourse bc it sucks to learn that ppl u know think something u struggle with isn't real, but i saw a tweet that reminded me of it & just wanted to say: a lot of ppl really want to believe that men can't have eating disorders

i was an absurdly picky eater as a kid, then i did what everyone yells at us to do and i "Grew The Fuck Up," but as i got older my depression & anxiety got worse and i reverted back to bad childhood habits because of MY FUCKED UP BRAIN THAT I CAN'T CONTROL

like im glad yall enjoy cooking and can appreciate complex flavors, but i spend most of the day starving myself bc of paralyzing anxiety only to eat popeyes out of sheer desperation for something to put in my body

as a kid i learned to eat my feelings, then i got diagnosed with epilepsy and started taking a mood stabilizer that destroyed my metabolism, began to hate my body deeply, now i don't eat much at all bc i don't know how to self control. somehow this is "xenophobia"

now i'm on a medication for anxiety but i have to eat it with a meal at night and i have anxiety about eating enough to take the medication bc eating is really fucking hard for me!!!! absolutely fuk u if u think i can just Grow Out Of That