When I first came out, I was really wrapped up in the idea of whether I would "pass" or not. It was something that delayed my coming out for a long time. I didn& #39;t want to be one of those "ugly trannies" that cis people just see as a man in a dress
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I felt like I had to proclaim myself as 100% Female in order to fit the mold of what people expected a trans woman to be. I had to tick all the boxes of my transition: HRT, surgery, etc, and then I& #39;d be accepted as a Real Woman
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I felt like I had to make up for lost time, since I was coming out at 33. This was one of the things that made me decide to have bottom surgery so early in my transition. (I also happened to be "lucky" that my surgeon had a short waitlist)
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Over time the hormones took effect and my body began to change, from something I just accepted and tried not to think about, to something I loved and felt proud of. I realized that I didn& #39;t want to be a 100% cis-passing woman. I just wanted my body to feel like my own.
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I realized that I actually *like* being different, and somewhere in between or outside the binary.
I never really felt comfortable saying I& #39;m a "woman". I often use the word "girl" instead, because there& #39;s a certain casualness to it that feels more fitting.
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I never really felt comfortable saying I& #39;m a "woman". I often use the word "girl" instead, because there& #39;s a certain casualness to it that feels more fitting.
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