CW: Meds, Insomnia (short thread)

I don& #39;t take them often b/c I hate how fuzzy I feel for most of the day after, but for a while I was prescribed Trazodone for my depression. I had auto-refill, so when 3 months ran out, I had a lot of pills. I didn& #39;t request more from my Doc.

Due to a concussion "rewiring" my brain (yes, my M.D. said this likely happened) I only get about 3 hours of sleep at a time without medication.

(Meds that I refuse to take because sleep meds should not be used long term, and I have one HELL of a tolerance for them.)

So last night I decided to take 3 Trazodone. I had been awake & unable to sleep for nearly 32 hours.

I slept for 10.

And for the first time in months, after the T-fog cleared from my head I actually felt productive so I did some cleaning & reorganizing.

In doing so, I found a slip of paper containing the name of the woman who sent me this book:

Thank you, L.R!!! I really appreciate the gift!

This is as close to I& #39;ve came to adulting since October.

It feels good, but like any other drug, you get to hate it after a while.

I should wait a few days before trying to be productive again.

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