So, erm.

Here's a thing I've been sitting on since tiddy smallification surgery and what got brought up again at 2 week post op visit.

My surgeon is pretty sure I'm intersex.

I have some problematic feels about this.

Some good feels too!

But the problematic bit is the extent to which it makes sense starts to edge into almost smugness that I might have more of a "medical reason" for trans than others.

It's just a very tiny thing, but I'm super bothered it's there at all.

As an overly researchy kid I had the theory that I may be intersex long before I figured out what trans was.

Of course what I read then used the old H word about it.

What's helpful is babbling this out now is once I actually started pulling words out my head and confronting the problem feels, they're nowhere near as big and smug as they seemed when I was trying to ignore them lurking.

This thread did not go where I expected.

It seems that the worry about that problematic thought were much much larger than it actually was.

I was going to talk about avoiding chromosome testing until I purged that. But there doesn't seem to be much to purge at all.

So I guess it's just cost & opportunity, and not really more than a curiosity to find out as it's not going to change anything.

Huh.

Yay me?