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TW // sexual abuse, PTSD
so a couple of years ago i was diagnosed with ptsd due to the sexual abuse i was a victim of for years as a child. and i rarely speak about it, even with close friends because somehow i feel like i& #39;m being a whiny baby and burdening people with it +
so a couple of years ago i was diagnosed with ptsd due to the sexual abuse i was a victim of for years as a child. and i rarely speak about it, even with close friends because somehow i feel like i& #39;m being a whiny baby and burdening people with it +
but some days it just gets too much to pretend that i& #39;m not constantly thinking about. these past few weeks have been specially hard because since the covid pandemics started in brazil i haven& #39;t had therapy sessions so my symptoms are a bit stronger +
and is just exhausting, you know? i don& #39;t even feel like a "survivor" because honestly did i really survive that? if you take a look at dsm it will say that people that suffered from prolonged traumatic experiences have different symptoms of ptsd +
and they are high emotional lability (bordering any lack of control over emotions) and extreme difficulty of building trust and intimacy. it doesn& #39;t feel great to relate to that. and it& #39;s probably the reason i& #39;m ranting about it on twitter instead of talking to someone i trust +
i just want to scream about it until it& #39;s all gone but it will never be completely gone and i& #39;m tired. i& #39;ve been having so many nightmares lately i wake up feeling more exhausted than when i went to bed +
