Trigger warning: Eating disorder

I saw some people promoting intermittent fasting. Just to define it, intermittent fasting is more a schedule kung kailan ka kakain, not a diet that specifies kung anong kakainin mo. Usually, it’s in intervals of 16-24 hours of fasting twice a week and eating 3-4 meals—

—for the remaining days. It’s scientifically an effective diet if the meals are also healthy and in moderation, but starving for 24 hrs also makes the brain impulsive when it comes to food. Its cravings could be insatiable, and when it’s eating day, you could just end up—

—devouring a meal good for 3 people. It’s counter-intuitive.

When I was doing this sched, I would take it to the extremes. I would eat for only 3 days a week, each day allowing me 1-2 small meals, and fasting for the remaining five days. I lost a craaazy amount of weight, about 3kg in only a month.

But when I tried to return to my normal routine (3 meals a day no fasting) my body would reject the food and I’d vomit everything out. I wasn’t even confident with the body I had still despite losing a large amount of weight.

I was always thinking: do they know i’m a try-hard who pukes herself because she can’t eat?

I loved seeing my reflection, i loved fitting into tight clothes and looking good. A big butt and big boobs with a small belly just fits society’s definition of beautiful. Outside my own room and off the mirror’s front though, I hated the way I looked, still.

It was so horrible, I felt my brain struggling to function well because of the hunger. I promised myself i’d never do this again to myself, but my insecurities are taking over again.

I’ve made schedules on what to eat and when to eat again, and this is exactly where I started before I fell down the rabbit hole of intermittent fasting.

If your insecurity takes over, take the well-tested route of changing the portions of your meals and essentially eating better by having a variety of food (leaning more towards beggies and fruits)

While intermittent fasting proves to be effective, it’s dangerous if your eating schedule is accompanied by a shit ton of insecurities. Just please, do this only when you know you can stick to the schedule and eat moderate amounts of food. Never go beyond 24 hours.

Intermittent fasting, if done wrongly could just introduce you to a plethora of eating disorders.

Been there, done that. Got better, but i’m starting to revert... I posted this thread to keep myself in check. Won’t go back there.