So I was debating myself whether how to better celebrate that I’m gay and proud of it.

Se here’s a personal thread.

No, it wasn’t easy. It never really is. It is dificult it make others see all the intangible things that made it hard.

Depression, inferiority complex, rape, trying to over compensate for the fact that I was gay and already felt like a second class person, trying to be an over achiever when in fact I’m just human being that was neglecting his inner self.

Having terrible partners, BEING a terrible partner, the continuous string of lies to try and look perfect, the hyper-sexualised scene, the kind of toxic dating environment that I’m also guilty of.

There are many, many ghosts in that dark side.

Not all is pretty, but I’m proud of my battles, proud of my scars.

Fairly, isn’t all dark either. I’m also proud of the bright side.

The side that made me fight against that neglected area that as community we are pushed to live in.

Being a gay teacher that was scared to admit it at first but that was definitely convinced not to let any student of any age feel that they couldn’t be who they wanted to be.

I would use all types of sexual orientation as examples when teaching relationship vocabulary or use men dressed in skirts or women dressed in overalls as examples.

I would defiantly debate to my superiors or students or parents that none of this was wrong. It was different.

I became the coworker that would activately fight for the right to have a chance to get a job for one’s skills not one’s sexual identity or orientation.

There was this one time that I had to be very daring and point out that there was no bloody check mark that would require an aplicant to state who do they sleep with for a reason. IT DIDN’T MATTER!

I was scared to loose my job, but never felt more right!

I became the family member that would challenge any status quo.

Made me the unpopular one at some point but now I can proudly say that I feel their love and support.

My parents have learn a lot from my own experience.

And the list for both my dark and bright side goes on and on.

But I’ll make this short, I promise.

I proudly work at @SomosMov and at @anglo_americana and I
know there’s lot to make, that my contribution is small and that I had it easier that previous generations, but I sincerely hope that I helped making life a tiny bit easier for the next one.

PS: And at this point I just want to say I proudly love man and that I don’t feel shame to say it or to show it.

I’m just trying to be the best I can.

#PrideMonth2020 #LoveIsLove #LoveIsGreat