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Ive always felt so under appreciated in my family (vent so go away)
My mother and father always say "if u keep up being valedictorian we will buy u your dream ipad" this has been kept up for 5 years, everytime it is recognition/awarding ceremony, i get valedictorian, yet my father says "i dont have the money right now langga, maybe next year na"
I feel that, no mstter how hard i try, that every single time i cry, i will just never get it.. I have asked for an ipad specifically ever since i was 7.
My father has a low job in australia with a 100 dollar sallary.. You guys are so so so lucky to receive an ipad as a birthday gift, wether or not asking for it. You guys are privellaged enough to get it in a matter of time.
Its just so heavy on my chest, no matter how much i do, i will never get it, its just so unfair.
I am NOT a materialistic person. I HAVE NEVER gotten birthday gifts, ive only celebrated my birthday ONCE. I have asked for it maybe my entire life.
I love and appreciate the things my parents do, even judt bringing food home i will est it all up, i appreciate them. Its their way of saying "i hope i can finally buy it"
And then another loan, another thing to pay, school expenses, bills, taxes, essentials, boom gone, no more money.
I try to adjust so much but it will just never come, THAT DAY will never come. Ive tried selling stuff at my school to earn myself an ipad.
Ive given up sometimes but i still have hope.
Thats all i have to vent about, im crying as i write this thread (i sound so fcking spoiled but its just so heavy)
(P.S my family doesnt own any luxuries like cars, we live in a small apartment, everyday we try to stablize our life but theres so much to pay)
This thread will be muted as it is only a vent and not a cry out post.
