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okay so i wanna open up about something that happened to me and that unfortunately does happen to a lot of ppl. this is not an expose thread or anything i just want to speak to help the ones that got in an abusive relationship too. it’s gonna be long.
okay so i wanna open up about something that happened to me and that unfortunately does happen to a lot of ppl. this is not an expose thread or anything i just want to speak to help the ones that got in an abusive relationship too. it’s gonna be long.
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so back in january this year i met this guy, we live in the same country but not city so i guess you could say it was a ‘long distance’ relationship. anywho, when we met we clicked pretty fast, a lot of matching between us so we got together +
so back in january this year i met this guy, we live in the same country but not city so i guess you could say it was a ‘long distance’ relationship. anywho, when we met we clicked pretty fast, a lot of matching between us so we got together +
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pretty fast. he was always a sweetheart at first. tho he was always making remarks about how women are useless and can’t do anything (him being a transgender ftm i thought he was having a hard time because of his birth gender and didn’t mind it) +
pretty fast. he was always a sweetheart at first. tho he was always making remarks about how women are useless and can’t do anything (him being a transgender ftm i thought he was having a hard time because of his birth gender and didn’t mind it) +
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but eventually the not-so-kind remarks became not about women but about me. he would start make comments to make me feel lower than him. for exemple when i would say ‘im good at this’ he would say things like ‘well it’s the only thing you’re good at’+
but eventually the not-so-kind remarks became not about women but about me. he would start make comments to make me feel lower than him. for exemple when i would say ‘im good at this’ he would say things like ‘well it’s the only thing you’re good at’+
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at first it wasn’t that harmful just hurting my ego a little but i never said anything cause i’m the type to hate confrontations. then he started body-shaming me (i’m overweighted) and he would call me fat etc. i still didn’t say anything +
at first it wasn’t that harmful just hurting my ego a little but i never said anything cause i’m the type to hate confrontations. then he started body-shaming me (i’m overweighted) and he would call me fat etc. i still didn’t say anything +
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one day, after like a month of relationship we had our first fight. he did something stupid and i got worried for him, and then he started calling me names and yelling at me. i’m overly triggered with yelling and he knew it but yelled at me so loud +
one day, after like a month of relationship we had our first fight. he did something stupid and i got worried for him, and then he started calling me names and yelling at me. i’m overly triggered with yelling and he knew it but yelled at me so loud +
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i had a panic attack that day. and hated myself for ‘getting into his personal business’. next day we made up but that day everything just wasn’t the same. when we were on the phone he wouldn’t listen to me just full on ignoring and +
i had a panic attack that day. and hated myself for ‘getting into his personal business’. next day we made up but that day everything just wasn’t the same. when we were on the phone he wouldn’t listen to me just full on ignoring and +
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yelling at me when i was disturbing his game. so i started calling him less. after that most of our relationship were through text messages. he would still make ‘jokes’ about me being fat, about me being a ‘child’ because i got triggered easily, +
yelling at me when i was disturbing his game. so i started calling him less. after that most of our relationship were through text messages. he would still make ‘jokes’ about me being fat, about me being a ‘child’ because i got triggered easily, +
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about me being too clingy basically everything. and at the time i didn’t realize that everytime he would call me names i would slowly become anything less than a zombie just following what he would say and being nervous at every phone call +
about me being too clingy basically everything. and at the time i didn’t realize that everytime he would call me names i would slowly become anything less than a zombie just following what he would say and being nervous at every phone call +
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that he would yell at me or call me names. i’ve never been the happiest person i have a lot of anxiety etc. so i basically became full on depressed. i wanted to never wake up everyday cause i was just lying here with no aim +
that he would yell at me or call me names. i’ve never been the happiest person i have a lot of anxiety etc. so i basically became full on depressed. i wanted to never wake up everyday cause i was just lying here with no aim +
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waiting to be disrespected. my irls knew a part of what was happening and told me it wasn’t good and i had to get out of this. and then he somehow manipulated me to think they didn’t know what they were talking about cause they don’t understand +
waiting to be disrespected. my irls knew a part of what was happening and told me it wasn’t good and i had to get out of this. and then he somehow manipulated me to think they didn’t know what they were talking about cause they don’t understand +
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‘our love’ as he said. more fights happened more named was i called and i came to the point where in those case i was just saying ‘yes’ or ‘you’re right’. then i came up to him how i basically didn’t want to live anymore +
‘our love’ as he said. more fights happened more named was i called and i came to the point where in those case i was just saying ‘yes’ or ‘you’re right’. then i came up to him how i basically didn’t want to live anymore +
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and that was the beginning of him victimizing himself. for once i needed to talk about myself and how i didn’t feel good but no he started like ‘i’m an awful person i didn’t realized i should be better etc’ so i ended up +
and that was the beginning of him victimizing himself. for once i needed to talk about myself and how i didn’t feel good but no he started like ‘i’m an awful person i didn’t realized i should be better etc’ so i ended up +
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comforting him when i was the one calling for help. he never not once listened to my call for help. then on top of that he started being extremely jealous i couldn’t see anyone without having a fight. and i was too in love to ever +
comforting him when i was the one calling for help. he never not once listened to my call for help. then on top of that he started being extremely jealous i couldn’t see anyone without having a fight. and i was too in love to ever +
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leave him. one night i came to him. literally i had no faith in life i just didn’t wanted to be here and he manipulated me so much to make me think i only had him and belittled my feelings so often that i didn’t know +
leave him. one night i came to him. literally i had no faith in life i just didn’t wanted to be here and he manipulated me so much to make me think i only had him and belittled my feelings so often that i didn’t know +
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who else to go to. well instead he sent me his best friend (who i didn’t know btw) who told me i was disgusting to ever dare say such things to him. and that basically i would have said that ‘he was the one pushing me +
who else to go to. well instead he sent me his best friend (who i didn’t know btw) who told me i was disgusting to ever dare say such things to him. and that basically i would have said that ‘he was the one pushing me +
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to suicide’ which i absolutely NEVER said cause it’s just awful and even if i hate someone i would have never said that. a few fights and days later he broke up with me. basically on this day i relived.
to suicide’ which i absolutely NEVER said cause it’s just awful and even if i hate someone i would have never said that. a few fights and days later he broke up with me. basically on this day i relived.
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at first i was sad because i thought i had no one else and well i loved him. but then came a feeling of relief. i didn’t have to be scared anymore. i spent three months in complete terror of my own relationship and it was literally killing me +
at first i was sad because i thought i had no one else and well i loved him. but then came a feeling of relief. i didn’t have to be scared anymore. i spent three months in complete terror of my own relationship and it was literally killing me +
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after he left i realized all the wrong he did to me: he called me names, body shamed me, belittle my feelings, ignored my cries for help, made me think i was in the wrong, and manipulated me into thinking i had only him in my life when i did not +
after he left i realized all the wrong he did to me: he called me names, body shamed me, belittle my feelings, ignored my cries for help, made me think i was in the wrong, and manipulated me into thinking i had only him in my life when i did not +
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after he left i realized how i was in denial, blinded by love and his words to not realize that he was indeed abusing me in not a physical way, but a verbal and emotional one. and most importantly i realized that i blamed myself ALL along when HE was+
after he left i realized how i was in denial, blinded by love and his words to not realize that he was indeed abusing me in not a physical way, but a verbal and emotional one. and most importantly i realized that i blamed myself ALL along when HE was+
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at wrong. which is why im making this thread. i don’t do it for people to feel sorry for me cause he’s out of my life and i’m fine. but i know im far from being the only one. so i’ll ask you two things. please try to leave this relationship even +
at wrong. which is why im making this thread. i don’t do it for people to feel sorry for me cause he’s out of my life and i’m fine. but i know im far from being the only one. so i’ll ask you two things. please try to leave this relationship even +
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if it’s hard because you love them keep in mind that if they do that to you they don’t genuinely love you. and most important please please do NOT blame yourself cause it’s what i did and look where it lead me.
if it’s hard because you love them keep in mind that if they do that to you they don’t genuinely love you. and most important please please do NOT blame yourself cause it’s what i did and look where it lead me.
i don’t know if this thread will reach a lot of people but people everyone take care of yourselves. also i want to mentionned that at the time it happened i was also very ill so that helped the depression it wasn’t ‘just’ him. dms are alway always opened if you need to talk
it was pretty long so thank you if you read this please take care of yourselves <3
