//HUGE TW//
I can’t anymore....
No this is not for attention just read these please

I can’t take this shit anymore with my head saying shit to me to do stuff to my arms.....sometimes it works.....and it really did this time....I feel like shit every FUCKING DAY! I CANT TAKE IT!

EVERYDAY ITS THE SAME HEAVY FEELING THAT STARTS FROM MY FACE DOWN TO MY THROAT THEN MY CHEST THEN THE REST OF MY BODY!.....I can’t take faking a smile.....I can’t take not caring about myself to care for others and act like I’m okay (not saying I don’t like helping others)

I can’t keep lying to people......I’m Kamryn McCabe and I have depression.....am I okay?....no I’m never okay....it’s the same shit everyday with me.....I act happy then get depressed and just try to push it away but I had enough of pushing away....

Last night I did a very dumb thing to myself.....and I’m sorry to the people I’m hurting rn as you read this.....you can blame me this time....you can yell at me....you can unfollow me if you want.....I don’t mind.....

//TW!!!//
I’ve been listening to the same sad songs having the same suicidal thoughts......”just do it already you know you want to”....”no one cares if you leave just leave this earth and everything will be alright”......”DO IT YOU PEICE OF SHIT!”

I’m tired of lying to people saying I’ll stop....but I never do....when people beg me to not do it it stresses me out and gives me more urges to do it....that’s why I say I’ll try.....

No one checks up on me anymore.....mainly only when I send a depressioning message....my family doesn’t check up on me.....
No one cares about the quiet girl anymore.....

There are 3 voices in my head....Mr.Blade.....Anxiety....and Depression....now I’m not gonna get deep into it bc I wrote about the already I’ll put my book in my bio so if you want to read it....but they scream at me EVERY FUCKING DAY

I swear one day I’m gonna snap and leave I SWEAR I AM!.....who ever is reading this....thank you for getting this far....surprised actually bc usually people don’t listen to me....but I listen to them....I don’t get it....

I try my best on trying to be happy so people don’t have to worry about me but when I want help they are usually not in a good mood as well or leave me on delivered.....I just need someone to talk to....

I basically lost a lot of people....I lost my mom and I don’t know if I will get her back....she’s in jail for drug abuse and gun trafficking....she’s the main reason why I’m like this....I lost a couple of my friends bc of drama....almost lost my best friend bc of a grudge......

You guys are thinking I’m over reacting woth this thread.....no I’m not just tired of hiding....so please for me just dm me....I need someone rn....I need to know that things will get better....

Bye.....