Not to expose myself as a lesbian but:
Leaving my friends feels like the end of portraitofaladyonfire where Eloise goes to say goodbye to Marianne and Marianne just shuts the door in her face. Because there are two types of lovers like in Orpheus. And I’m Marianne because -

I keep finding myself not wanting to have “goodbyes” with my friends. I don’t want my last memory to be a goodbye. I just want to go. Seeing people makes me anxious, I just want to leave without a goodbye or send off.

[context is that 1: I’m a lesbian so ofc this comes to mind and 2: I’m moving to California from Texas to persue a career in animation and I leave in 3 days]

This thread really reveals how obsessed I am with POALOF..... I swear I haven’t seen it more than 3 times guys I SWEAR