I’m gonna rant, sorry if you have notifs on

I find it so fascinating that I can finish an anime/show/movie and feel this indescribable feeling afterwards. I want to say I feel empty but it’s so much more nuanced than that. Maybe I’m super far up my own ass, but I just feel this WANTING

It’s so common that we as people get so engrossed in a story that we feel emotionally affected, but for me particularly there’s this a certain EDGE that it puts on me when I finish something really good and I don’t know why. It’s a VERY peculiar headspace to be in

I can’t tell what it is that it leaves me wanting. In particular with this show that I just finished, the story is perfect and it doesn’t necessarily need more. It’s completely self-contained and wraps up with a bow and I’m very pleased. So what is it that I WANT afterwards?

I don’t know if what I want is to be able to create a story of the same caliber, or to live in that world that I just had nestled in my brain, or if it’s a certain melancholy originating from an almost ridiculous feeling that those characters are real and now they’re gone.

I’m a very emotionally passionate person and when I feel things I feel them very strongly, so feelings like this just leave me GONE for a time afterwards. There’s been many times where I’ll finish a show and be unable to work because I’m out of it. It’s CUMBERSOME

I get such a rush from media that makes me feel things. I purposely watch anime to make me cry because of the rush of being that perfect mix of happy and sad. I look for scenes of shows and movies on youtube and watch them constantly.

I have a HUGE draw to put these feelings out into the world and share them but along with that a huge lack of internal value placed on my words given to the public, there’s so much like this that I want to share with no idea how or why I want to in the first place