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I AM MAD AT MYSELF.
No, I'm not telling this to make a pity party. I really am mad at myself. All these years I've always refused to take accountability for my actions. I've always blamed other people for my sufferings. These are my fault.
No, I'm not telling this to make a pity party. I really am mad at myself. All these years I've always refused to take accountability for my actions. I've always blamed other people for my sufferings. These are my fault.
I always whine that it sucks being alone but at the same time, I isolate myself from others and shut people off. Perhaps I really am dispensable BUT I'm not doing anything for that to change. I'm still a whining depressed piece of shit.
I easily become defensive when I'm confronted even if I'm the one who is wrong. There's no point in explaining my side because this anger would lose its gravity and urgency. I am taking full responsibility. My behavior is toxic and there's no other way to put it.
I am sorry for cutting people off undeservingly.
I am sorry for ghosting people.
I am sorry for being so insecure about myself that I became paranoid and was capable of hurting people.
I am sorry for not acknowledgin my mistakes.
I am sorry for being a shitty friend.
I am sorry for ghosting people.
I am sorry for being so insecure about myself that I became paranoid and was capable of hurting people.
I am sorry for not acknowledgin my mistakes.
I am sorry for being a shitty friend.
This anger inside me for years have done nothing but harm not just to myself but also to others.
I'm taking full responsibility with my behavior. I need to call myself out and I have to do it publicly because I feel like just telling these to myself would be futile eventually.
I'm taking full responsibility with my behavior. I need to call myself out and I have to do it publicly because I feel like just telling these to myself would be futile eventually.
I need you all to call me out when I've done you wrong. I have to strip down my defenses when it comes to criticisms.
I have abused my mental health condition in refusing to change for the better. I have used it to coddle my toxic behavior.
No, enough is enough.
I have abused my mental health condition in refusing to change for the better. I have used it to coddle my toxic behavior.
No, enough is enough.
I can never do anything to correct and make up for my mistakes in the past but the best thing I can give is a changed behavior.
I am deeply sorry to everyone because I've been here for almost 26 years and I'm still here, being a shitty person that I am.
I am deeply sorry to everyone because I've been here for almost 26 years and I'm still here, being a shitty person that I am.
I've been wanting to heal for so long but I know I couldn't do that without holding myself accountable and being mad at myself.
Let this serve as a receipt. If I do something bad, show me this thread.
I want to be more, yes, but I have to work hard for it.
Let this serve as a receipt. If I do something bad, show me this thread.
I want to be more, yes, but I have to work hard for it.
This is me trying to start my healing into becoming a better person.
Thank you, everyone, for still sticking with me even if most of the times I try to push you away.
No more babying. I'll start acting like a responsible adult.
Thank you, everyone, for still sticking with me even if most of the times I try to push you away.
No more babying. I'll start acting like a responsible adult.
