all these thoughts in my head,

the negativities it had brought and has fought its way into my day,

ya Allah, i REALLY need to write it down lah!

but need to finish the cake first so tunggu jap eh syaf, tunggu jap.

(that tweet i saw was really triggering tbh.)

i accidentally* saw

ps: tak nak baca iya silakan scroll down. no hate.

im an ot, and like dr. phil said, "you have to take care of yourself before you can take care of others."

so here i am, taking care of myself, of my own mental health and well-being.

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so, i chilled the cake, the pudding, and performed solat asr.

now, before i start, gonna put #pabilasyafbermonolog here.

just in case, i want to add on points or what i wrote is contradict to Islam.

this thread is not going to be long pun, pendek ja (hopefully).

first, to clarify, i saw the tweet(s) last night, before going to bed. was supposed to be doing my night routine but then i laid down on my bed and got lazy to get back up.

so what i did to kill the time was, well surf the twitter lah, nak buat apa lagikan? erk.

then i saw it.

ruined my bedtime/sleep so bad. did went through an emotional breakdown (a mini one, not the worst).

"awak tahu aurat itu wajib ditutup, so kenapa awak tak tutup aurat dengan sempurna?"

soalan ini ditujukan pada kedua-dua kaum adam dan hawa. what i want you to do is, contemplate your answer.

tak nak share pun tak apa, cukup sekadar awak ja yang tahu jawapan tu.

TAPI.

mesti jujur. jujur dengan diri sendiri, kenapa jawapan tu yang dipilih.

contemplate the answer sampai betul-betul puas hati.

siapa yang nak/perlu kongsi jawapan, silakan komen di bawah. siapa yang nak pm atau ws pun iya dialu-alukan.

been asking this question to myself too-- more often lately.

lagi-lagilah bila di alam universiti ni. lagi rasa nak semua mudah dan cepat, aurat kadang ke laut. sekadar bare minimum ja.

and wait. thread ni tak habis lagi. ada sambungan lagi.