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Idk if anyone cares but I’d like to say something to anyone who is willing to listen. If you’re feeling like you’re not yourself lately. It’s okay. Me too. And probably millions of other people. You’re not alone. I’d like to share some thoughts. maybe you can relate... https://twitter.com/valdiviezzz15/status/1276556351179829253">https://twitter.com/valdiviez...
For the past couple years Ive looked into the mirror and hated what I saw. My body has changed, I’ve gained weight I’ll admit that. But even more important my mentality and mindset has changed. Never in my life had I looked at myself and felt like I was worthless. Pathetic. Ugly.
There’s days where you don’t even have to look in the mirror to feel this way. There’s a heaviness that weighs down on you and doesn’t let you leave your bed. That’s okay. I’ve done it.
There’s days where you feel like you have no choice and you fight through tears to put on some makeup for school or work. That’s okay. I’ve done that too.
Sometimes you wake up ready for the day, it’s a good day, then all of a sudden you’re having what feels like a panick attack during your lunch break. And you don’t even know why. But that’s okay. I’ve also done that.
Maybe you’re feeling embarrassed to eat because you feel like you’re being judged. It’s okay. I’ve felt that.
Have you ever felt embarrassed to workout or exercise in public? It’s okay. I have too.
Don’t even get me started on shopping for new clothes... when nothing seems to fit? Those meltdowns in the dressing room? Yeah me too..
For the past couple years I’ve experience all these things on multiple occasions. I’ve tried to find solutions to better both my physical and mental health. Each time I’ve felt like I failed.
Recently I’ve tried to exercise more often, eat a little cleaner, and stick to an at home routine that consists of work and chores. This morning I woke up with so much to proud for. But when I looked in the mirror I still felt worthless. Pathetic. Ugly.
This is when I knew I had a problem that may be beyond me. Maybe you’re catching my drift..maybe you’ve felt this way too. Words can’t save your world. Only actions can. Your actions.
If you’ve related to anything in this thread just know you’re not alone. It’s okay to not be okay sometimes.
Get some extra sleep, shed some tears, eat that extra slice of pizza, try something new! Don’t be afraid to look in the mirror. Because even when you know you’re not looking at your best self you can remind yourself you’re not alone. 
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