I wanted to take time before commenting on this, to really collect my feelings, because I didn't just love Brigador, that game really meant something to me. Having read some of the comments that were, the overall feeling I've come away with is just disappointment.

Here's why... https://twitter.com/StellarJockeys/status/1275559933606424576

A few years back, long before I had any kind of presence on social media at all, I remember just tweeting about how I was waiting for a refund on something on Steam, but that it wasn't going to be processed before the steam sale ended so I could afford to buy Brigador.

And just out of the blue @HughSJ, one of the developers, messaged me and gave me a key for the deluxe edition. I wasn't a streamer or influencer at the time, I was just someone who didn't have a whole lot of money, and he just gave me the game. Just like that.

That meant a lot to me.

I grew up on the Amiga era of gaming, and Brigador felt like something right out of that era, like a cyberpunk clone made from the DNA of Syndicate, Desert Strike, and Walker. So holy shit, did I ever love it!

I bought a copy for my girlfriend, and she adored it so much she later ordered the soundtrack on vinyl. Yup, we even have the Brigador soundtrack on vinyl in this house, and is it ever glorious to hear.

Last year, I played Brigador during my big 36 hour charity stream where I was raising money to save my local LGBT resource center from closure. Hugh messaged me again, this time asking for a postal address. A few weeks later, I got a package from Stellar Jockeys.

I got Brigador t-shirts, pins, patches, and even this awesome military satchel that they had when doing promo work! But by far the coolest thing was this note that was typed up on a vintage typewriter congratulating me on all my hard work, signed by developer Hugh Monahan.

I treasure that note. "I hope you and your community can always find a home in our games" it said. It's on my shelf next to my desk

And earlier this year, Benjamin at Stellar Jockeys out of the blue gave me 10 keys for Brigador to give away for another fundraising stream.

You can probably understand what I mean when I say that game meant a lot to me. I still think it's one of the best indie games ever made, it's an incredible passion project that feels like no other game out there. So seeing that one of the devs was privately transphobic? It sucks

But having read some of Jack's shitty comments, you know what stung the most?

It was something like "It's not like those *******s even play games"

I was like...

I'm not angry about it, some of the transphobic comments aren't exactly any worse than you'd see expressed openly in steam forums, I couldn't even muster up anger over them if I tried. I'm just disappointed.

I still think the game is incredible, it still means a lot to me, I don't think the rest of the team share those sentiments, and I'm disappointed that one of the devs' views reflect badly on the team as a whole.

Mandalore just did a video about it, if you were wondering what makes it so special.

God damn, I loved this game so much. Which makes things all the more disappointing.