So here's a fun little thread about personal growth because I have a lot to talk about, read this if you want but there's no obligation

Everyone (or almost everyone) knows that when I first joined Twitter I was toxic, mean, an asshole, and just an all around not enjoyable person to talk to. I'd like to think that's changed but I just wanna discuss why that was the case

It sucks to think that so many people have a lasting impression of me as someone who is horrible and mean spirited and I can't go back and change that, like it seriously breaks my heart because I know that's not what I'm like at all??

There will never be any real justification for it however to help everyone understand, there has been a good deal of traumatic stuff that happened when I was around 12-14 years old which I won't get into HOWEVER it left me with a lot of anger + sadness + confusion that

Little me found very hard to deal with. So I took it out on people without even realising in the easiest way possible; behind a screen. It's not only just on Twitter either, I was just a bitter and vile person because I had so much built up rage and anger which I didn't know

how to manage or cope with. I regret it so much and it honestly haunts me to think how bad of a person I was but thankfully I'm in a better place w a better support network and a better way of dealing with stuff like that. However what I really want to say is that

I'm sorry to the people I hurt, or annoyed, or bullied, whether you see this or not, I owe all of you an apology because you did not deserve that and I want you to know that I have changed and in a strange way thank you for making me realise there was something wrong.

From now on until forever this account is all love and kindness bc there is really no fun in being an angry miserable bastard. Lots of love