i haven't watched critical role in almost a year and honestly? i'm fine with that.

at one point waiting for a new episode every thursday was the only thing keeping me alive and i became so dependent on it that i never thought i was gonna stop being a fan, but it's crazy to me that i ended up doing that by choice?

honestly it was a combination of a part of the fandom (definitely not all, most of y'all are amazing people) refusing to criticize certain aspects of the show, and from my perspective it kinda turned into hero worshipping, which isn't healthy for anyone involved

and them having am*nda p*lmer on between the sheets, who is just horrible and problematic in so, so many ways, that left a bad taste in my mouth. vox machina's story will stick with me probably forever, and i still backed the kickstarter and read the comics

but i think i'm finally at that point where i'm okay with just not really vibing with c2 anymore

this thread probably sounds really weird, but critical role used to be my entire identity and reason for living, and a hyperfixation that probably went further than what is healthy for a person, and now i think i'm just.... happy? not depending on something so heavily anymore

i'm able to recognize that i'm past the point of needing a crutch like that and that i'm making a lot of progress with myself, and even though i'm thankful that the show could help me at a dark time, i'm ready to let it go