Thread by @JewelWildmoon, Ok I'm making this thread and tagging #HazbinHotel since it's in relation [...]

Ok I& #39;m making this thread and tagging #HazbinHotel since it& #39;s in relation to the whole kill art issue and I fucked up today
This might be a long thread so I& #39;m sorry for having you sit through the whole thing but I just needed to get it off my chest and clarify some things I said:

And will be pinning it for now so mutuals who saw it can see.
Anyway. I& #39;m done pretending now. Regarding Alfa and Alex, I would keep saying "they should probably just block or ignore if the content is upsetting to them." I& #39;m contradicting myself here cuz while I& #39;m saying that, I-

-am upset by it myself. However, since I came across Alfa and Alex& #39;s art before the whole drama happened, I was shocked to see what they were doing and because I still liked their nonviolent art, I pretended to be on their side or neutral when conversing with them because-

-1) I didn& #39;t want to start an argument with them since I still looked up to them and their art and
2) based on what I& #39;ve seen from them, they will publicly post about anyone arguing against them for their followers to go attack them which I was afraid would happen to me. So all-

-the while, I just kept repeating that statement around them. However, when I was around others who were also against what they were doing, I told them how I actually feel about it. I was trying not to scold Alex and Alfa about what they& #39;re doing because I felt like I would be-

-shaming people for their art which was something I didn& #39;t want to do. Bit in all honesty, even tho I said "I don& #39;t mind kill art as long as it isn& #39;t to provoke people purposefully," it& #39;s not fully true. Honestly speaking, watching the characters be killed off (ESPECIALLY to-

-spite people) upsets me.i love Vaggie and all the characters as well as the ships so ofc I was upset when people purposefully made kill art of her. But I didn& #39;t say that to their faces put of fear that they& #39;d send their followers after me to argue which I don& #39;t handle well-

-since I try to AVOID arguments (my anxiety just increases rapidly engaging in it so I& #39;d rather avoid it). However, today I& #39;ve done a major fuck up. I& #39;ve also been following saltys__spitoon for a while and love their art. But today, I came across THEIR take on the kill art and..

Oh boy how do I put this.. Well basically it was necrophilia and rape all rolled into one. An artwork where Alastor decaptated Vaggie and used her head to deepthroat him (yes it& #39;s exactly what it sounds like) honestly speaking, I was horrified when I came across it. Yes I-

-was aware that they did put warnings on it and set it to be viewed in Privatter butI couldn& #39;t help being REPULSED by something as sick as that. Even if it is art, it& #39;s horrible someone would like the idea of that and a commentor even said that it made them horny. How and why tf?

I& #39;m going to be honest here. I threw up in my mouth a little when I came across it. Not because I& #39;m slightly squeamish (I& #39;m desensitized to gore) but because necrophilia absolutely disgusts me especially done in a process like thaf in tve drawing. Anyway, again I stupidly was-

-afraid they& #39;d take off on me if I say something about it especially since just like Alfa and Alex, I used to look up to her and her art so I wasn& #39;t sure what to do. I was about to comment something like "wtf" or "isn& #39;t this necrophilia?" but spotted Alfa in the comments already-

-arguing with people who were against it and again out of fear of her sending her followers after me (as she seems to be the loudest on kill art acceptance), I once again pretended to be fine with it and told salty that if people don& #39;t like it, they should block and ignore but-

-truthfully speaking, I myself was beyond upset and disgusted with what I was seeing. And yet my dumbass still gave in to trying to be calm towards them, not realizing until a few hours after how HORRIBLE my replies would sound from another person& #39;s perspective. Now that I look-

-back at it, I can see what about it made people assume I was supporting it. Firstly I& #39;m horrible at wording these things, secondly I should have chosen to block them AS SOON as I saw the problematic behavior or AT LEAST voice my TRUE views on it rather than trying to suck up to-

-them because "I used to look up to them" and didn& #39;t want to create bad grounds with them and now I look back at it and hate that I let myself be pushed over and go against my own common sense and standards for the sake of trying to avoid an argument. But now I& #39;d much rather-

-have spoken up about it than say such bullshit to avoid "offending" them because now I& #39;ve most likely lost some of my friends because of this. They came across my replies to saltys__spitoon and based on my wording, assumed that I& #39;m in support of all of it and are now feel-

-uncomfortable associating with me and having me in the server (I& #39;m not going to calm names. I don& #39;t want people to go attacking them for their opinions on it) and I would much rather deal with anxiety towards arguments rather than WORSE anxiety towards losing friends who have-

-been there for me all this time. I can& #39;t blame anyone else but myself for letting myself drop so low as to say what I said in the comments on that post even if it was just pretending. In that post, I santed to say something thar I can build on to mention that I don& #39;t support-

-nor am into necrophilia or rape as displayed in that drawing (which I did mention in the replies) but failed to see what context it would be taken by from another& #39;s perspective. So basically the point of this post was to explain why I seemed to be switching sides back and forth,

-clarify that I do NOT support the kill art and apologize to my friends and anyone else who came across my replies to that drawing. I& #39;m very sorry for making you feel uncomfortable around me and I understand if you still hate me for it and still don& #39;t want to associate with me-

-because personally I can& #39;t even forgive myself for stooping that low to avoid an argument with them and anyone else suporting it. I could have had the common sense to just block and ignore or the dignity to at least tell them what I REALLY think about this behavior. I& #39;m honestly

-so fed up with all this drama and the kill art. Never once have I been under this much stress in a fandom before and I& #39;ve had lots of unpleasant encounters before this. I just hope that more people who saw convos with me, Alex, Alfa and Spitoon will see this and know that it-

-wasn& #39;t my true thoughts on the whole situation. I hope that this could clear it up for you guys. At this point, I don& #39;t even care what Alex or Alfa say to do to me if they see this. I& #39;m just fed up with all this drama. I can& #39;t browse my feed without SOME sort of fandom drama-

-popping up and it& #39;s seriously driving me crazy and has been affecting my me tal state for a while now but today really takes the cake. I don& #39;t have an excuse for following Alfa, Alex or Spitoon anymore since now it& #39;s all just mainly infuriating posts or gore art instead of the-

-regular art I used to enjoy seeing them create. That being said, I don& #39;t want to have anything else to do with this drama anymore. I& #39;ve stated my opinion on being against this targetted kill art. I& #39;ve already blocked most of those in suport of it whose tags I could remember-

-(Alex, Alfa, Spitoon and her main acc) and will continue to block anyone I come across creating it or attacking me for being against it. I& #39;m sock of it. I& #39;m done. The last thing I wanted was for it to come to losing friends over this and because of me being a people pleaser-

-nonetheless. Anyway, this post has gone on long enough. I don& #39;t support gore art nor necrophilia and as a message to Alfa and ex, I don& #39;t care if you hate me or send your followers after me. Your behavior towards the situation is rather immature and I don& #39;t want anything to do-

-with this anymore. Go ahead and post screenshots of me. I don& #39;t care at this point. I& #39;m done. I& #39;m fed up. I& #39;m tired of the drama.

I really need to take a break from Twitter until I can clear my head or something.. My damn chest pains have been acting up and I& #39;m fed up. Why can& #39;t we just enjoy HH without all this drama?
Anyway..this ending up turning out as more of a rant. Again I apologize to anyone I& #39;ve-

-upset with my replies to those 3. Please rest assured that it isn& #39;t where I stand in the situation and I& #39;m against the idea. Especially where necrophilia is involved. I love all the characters and respect all the ships so I myself am sickened by this whole thing. I might take a-

-break from Twitter or just limit how long I& #39;m online for. I might just hurry up and make that sfw acc so I can try to browse drama free there, idk but I& #39;m just tired of all this drama.

Blessed day/night everyone and sorry for the rant. I just really needed it off my chest..

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Also sorry for any typos. The screen calibration& #39;s been problematic these past few days

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