Read on Twitter
Okay so throughout the course of my last relationship, we’ve had numerous occurences wherein I’d tell stories about my past and I’m sorry that it then progressed to being causes for insecurity ng partner ko, which then became their reasoning behind their abuse towards me. +
I’m not going to excuse my behavior, kasi I downplayed their trust issues (sa past/s niya) by telling stories about myself and several people I’ve had history with. Kaya siya na-insecure lalo and naging controlling because there were instances wherein +
I’d re-tell stories. Plus naging kaklase ko pa dalawa sa past ka-MU’s (???) and I’d be open about how my day went and if they were involved, I’d mention them sa stories. Kasi yeah I didn’t want to leave those parts out since they meant no harm anyway— but ayun na nga. +
I didn’t think much of it, pero it greatly affected my ex’s mental state. It was all unintentional but I still regret everything that did lead to my ex having doubts and issues about this matter. Kaya sorry. +
There were countless times we’d fight and there were times when I’d compare the treatment ng pasts ko sa treatment niya sa akin. Again, hindi ako magbibigay ng excuses for this because I know I could’ve done without saying things like that. +
It was early into our relationship nung naging toxic na. Some of my closest friends knew because I had a rant account. (For reasons I can’t disclose because sasabihing sinisiraan ko siya) And in that rant account, one of my past partners was there too. +
Of course, I see now that it was a dick move to my partner because my rants were mainly about the manipulation and abuse na nangyayari sa’min. It worsened their insecurity and from then, it became one of the main things they’d use against me in a fight. +
These all became their validation for the controlling, manipulation, and abuse. While I agree that I caused issues to worsen, even if it was unintentional, I constantly think that there is no excuse for abuse. This became one of our usual topics to fight about. +
Keep in mind na wala pa kaming 1 year nito and we’d constantly fight because both of us had issues with insecurity. The whole relationship was toxic. When we’d fight, pareho kaming nagsasabi ng dapat hindi na sinasabi. I mentioned once or twice that I’d talk to my ex
Because they knew how to treat someone better. Kasi hindi toxic doon. I know I still shouldn’t have said that no matter how hurt I was and I’m sorry.
I honestly don’t know how to go around this since my ex (Simpao) is adamant that he is not at fault for abusing me. But I’ll continue this thread and mention his claims as to why he did what he did.
