i doubt anyone will read this but i needed to get it out:
i feel like i have so many amazing people around me but i feel so alone, its just like no matter what i do i’m just never going to be enough, it’s happened so many times over years and years where i just try my best to-

be the friend people actually want but i’m never someone that anyone actually cares about, if i didn’t message anyone first i think literally 2 maybe 3 people would notice that i was gone, i feel like no one genuinely cares about me unless i message them first or put in -

so much effort and it’s just like i’m not good enough and i don’t know what i do wrong, i have friends but it’s only because i try so hard to keep them and it’s never enough but it’s even worse when you realise it because you feel even more alone. i’m sorry i’m not funny or-

pretty or the most stable person you’ve met but all i want is for people to stick around me and i just feel like i don’t fit in anywhere and i never have done because anywhere i go no one genuinely likes me, i’m sorry i’m such a mess i just needed to get it all out

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