someone once said in a comment on one of my fics that it could be read as queerplatonic ‘until the very last scene’, which was surprising but ultimately fine. i didn’t mind that, even if the wording of the rest of that comment felt kinda weird and bothered me a little tbh.

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i still think about it now and then. not bc the comment just barely toed the edge of rude (it doesn’t bother me anymore rlly), but bc of the ‘until the very last scene’ part.

is it bc they confessed at the end? or bc they kissed? bc, to me, the fic /was/ romantic from nearly +
the very beginning.

i already tend to worry about if i’m making the characters’ romantic attraction to one another clear enough bc i don’t tend to pair it with physical attraction—which is how i think a lot of people recognize their more-than-platonic feelings for each other. +
idk if people have noticed that about my fics, how i focus more on the ‘i want to be close to them’, rather than the ‘i want to kiss them’ and it’s bc i don’t know if i know how to write about liking someone physically rather than just from an aesthetic aspect, the way you +
appreciate artwork or a particularly pretty sunrise. bc it’s just... not like that. for me. i don’t really know what it’s like to like someone like that.

so the comment stuck with me. did that reader think it felt queerplatonic bc the characters never outright thought +
‘i’m in love with them’ (bc i like to convey that in less direct ways), or bc physical attraction was never addressed. i mean, you /can/ love someone romantically without wanting to make out with them. asexuality exists. i wish i knew that when i was younger. +
there’s no grand meaning or conclusion to this thread really. i’m just throwing this out here bc i saw zanna’s tweet about why she doesn’t write kissing scenes and it made me think of why /i/ write them even though the idea of them doesn’t personally appeal to me +
just to get the point across that yes, they like each other. here’s a universally recognized gesture to prove it. please don’t misunderstand.

the point is, it’s interesting for me to think about now, how the writer’s own experiences seep into their writing. maybe one day i’ll +
write that fic that /truly/ mirrors my own experiences rather than vaguely skating around them, but until then i’ll keep writing kissing scenes and hoping they come off genuine to my readers. they’re nice to think about anyway, from an outsider pov.
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