Why can't people live freely however they want to be? Why must they abide by the "rules" when there is no valid reason for those rules to exist in the first place? There is no disadvantage from disobeying the so-called rules, so why must we obey?

I've never questioned anything when I was little. I was told that truth is truth and that I shouldn't even think of denying it. But is it really "truth", though? Now that I question everything, you will need more than an ancient book to make me believe in what you said.

Although ngl, even since I was younger, I always find the existence of those rules as somewhat illogical. But at that time, I was too scared to question anything. Everyone told me that people who "try to deny the truth" are lost people, but is it wrong to have doubts?

Since I was a child, people around me always show hatred to those who are "lost". They say those people have made the wrong decision. I was told to NEVER side with those who violate the rules. The hatred for the violators have been engraved in my heart, but I am here to deny it.

Why am I taught to hate people? Isn't what YOU believe in supposed to be good for humanity? Why do we need to oppres people for no logical reason other than "you are denying your fate". I don't get it, I just don't. Why aren't others questioning the same thing? Am I just insane?

I don't want to live my life pretending to be one of you. I'm not against you, but we don't share the same ideology. But at the same time, I don't want to disappoint those who I loved the most. I'm sorry that I failed to meet your expectations, but I do not regret this.

Anyways, that's all for my 1 am thread of what's going on in my mind right now. Was legit trying to sleep but ended up thinking about this.
This thread was intentionally made to be vague, but it might be pretty easy to figure out what I'm talking about. Idk, welp goodbye for now.

Bro why does this thread sound so poetic