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no self-deprecation, but i don& #39;t consider myself smart (some people do??). i just happen to know a lot of random, useless shit. critical thought is something i struggle with because it requires a level of focus and memory that i truly don& #39;t have.
so, speaking psychologically, this fits my ADHD. i can& #39;t sit there for too and organize my thoughts. i either give up or get bored. in real life debate i forget half of what the person said. my brain can only grasp onto one concept at a time when presented verbally.
my whole life i just assumed i was a visual learner, but how much of it was/is that i jut can& #39;t concentrate long enough to remember auditory information? i have bursts of critical ideas, but lose them almost instantaneously in the moment.
this honestly has always made it difficult for me to engage in active listening. even when i truly want to listen to what someone is saying something distracts me. i have to ask people to repeat themselves because i "zone out" as they are talking.
there& #39;s a running joke among my friends and myself (on here and irl tbh) that i don& #39;t listen to myself when i talk. in reality something else will take my attention away right after i speak and i just can& #39;t remember what i said.
i have to quantify tasks in order to help me remember them (i.e. "i have do get 3 things at the grocery store," "i have 5 things to do today," "i have 2 homeworks tonight"). i physically use my hands to "hold onto" a thought or point during conversations.
hell, even what was supposed to be one tweet turned into some sort of rambling on here. how much of my life has been affected by my struggles with attention? there& #39;s so many more examples i could give. the entirety of my life has been littered with, "i forgot."
