Read on Twitter
I have a lot of pent up anger and frustration from my last relationship, so I’m going to make a thread of all the times he made me feel like shit 
https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥰" title="Smiling face with 3 hearts" aria-label="Emoji: Smiling face with 3 hearts">
And before ANYONE comes at me and says “he didn’t force you to do any of this blah blah blah you could have told him no or broken up with him” I wanted our relationship to work SO MUCH and he made it as difficult as it could possibly be :)
Let’s start with our first date: about 40 minutes after physically meeting him for the first time (met on tinder), he tried to kiss me and I jokingly was like “I only kiss on the second date” and he was like guess we’re having a second date then
Even though I was just trying to say I wasn’t comfortable in a way that wouldn’t hurt his feelings or his ego
Let’s talk about something else that happened on the first date
Let’s talk about something else that happened on the first date
My friends invited me to see a movie with them, but I made the date with him first so I said no to them and went on my date instead. When I told him this he was like “I can tell so much about your character now that you’ve said. I literally love that”
This was the beginning of him thinking that he owned my time and started to make me feel like shit for seeing my friends or not going over to his townhouse/later his dorm room
He said that he wanted to hang out often, & seeing how we were college students, he said we can just bring our work to his room & do our work while in the same room before actually “hanging out”
Every SINGLE time I brought work over to do, he talked to me the entire time or did anything that makes it very hard to actually concentrate & I almost never got my work
But whenever he was doing work, I sat silently & wouldn’t say anything until he was done ??
But whenever he was doing work, I sat silently & wouldn’t say anything until he was done ??
As someone who was getting headaches everyday, this made my GPA absolutely plummet & when I tried setting rules about this, he made me feel like I was being too serious & ignored me/talked over me the whole time
This next story is gonna take a hot minute, so bear with me. I cannot handle people fighting in front of me, it makes me very panicky & so beyond uncomfortable. When him & his housemates got into a fight, I sat in his rooms & put headphones on with loud music —
— so I couldn’t hear them fighting. After, he made go with him to an empty sports field (not a football field bc it was for a different sport but basically that) while it the sun was setting, it was very cold, and I had shorts & a t-shirt on —
— i stood there for ~ an hour while he called his parent to explain what just happened. I eventually was sitting on the ground, in geese shit, just so I could huddle my body closer for warmth :)) (end of that story)
When we were first talking, I told him that I hadn’t dated since freshman year of hs (which he later told his parents) & that I wasn’t comfortable moving as fast as he was. One time while I was over, we were cuddling together & he fell asleep —
— i was too scared to wake him because I didn’t want him to be annoyed, so I laid still until he woke & my body was so sore from how I was laying. When he woke up, mind you this was our third or fourth time hanging out, the first thing he said was —
— “if you’re not comfortable now, I don’t know what to tell you because that was incredible” which made me feel like such an ass because I literally could not fall asleep because I was too scared to & it made me question why I couldn’t just be comfortable around him.
Before we had met, I would have dinner with my Au (not saying her full name because I don’t if she would be comfortable with me doing so, but she knows who she is) but as soon as we met, he expected/made me have dinner with him EVERY night —
— he would ridicule me if I was even a few minutes late to wherever we were eating (even tho I almost spent several minutes waiting for him to get done with class so we could go) & he always harassed me about going to a different dining hall earlier in the day —
— because he thought the food there was the worst thing to exist on the planet.
If this thread is hard to read, I apologize because I have been trying to block out as much of our relationship as I can because it physically makes me want to hurt myself just thinking about him.
If this thread is hard to read, I apologize because I have been trying to block out as much of our relationship as I can because it physically makes me want to hurt myself just thinking about him.
