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I believe all victims of abuse deserve to be heard & as someone who was verbally abused & gaslit by this person (apparently falsely accusing me in her tweets several times), I refuse to let my words/emotions be invalidated, thus I felt the need to tell my truth in all this. 1/n
My experience w/ her started out okay at first. Although I wasn’t aware of the what the word ‘consent’ was at first and what it meant at 17, I was aware that I’ve never forced myself at her- 2/n
-as I’ve always based my actions off of hers throughout our relationship. I& #39;m also personally aware na ako yung first niya and i tried my best to be as careful as possible. 3/n
Come early 2018, we started to fall apart due to a lot of things happening in our individual lives since we were both entering college at the time, and we just weren’t happy with our relationship anymore. 4/n
We formally broke up around the time nearing her graduation. At first I was hesitant but I then agreed kasi di na talaga kami masaya. 5/n
After the breakup, we’d often fight, misunderstand and insult each other but, in my understanding, only in jest while still being “good friends.”. 6/n
The last time I reached out to her was in Sep2018, when she misunderstood 4 pairs of socks that I bought (one purposefully for my then-roommate, & two pairs for her). 7/n
There were 2 sets of black socks (one of which she chose) & I must’ve given my old roommate the wrong pair. 8/n
Prior to this incident, we agreed that the best way for us to cope was to cut ties with each other, which we didn’t consistently do. But her response to this misunderstanding was a barrage of insults, verbal attacks, and ranting, which led me to officially cut ties with her.
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Fast forward to January this year, when she DM’d me to come clean with all her ill feelings towards me which I really thought were sincere and that she meant it. How is it na 6 months ago she accused me of r*ping her. 10/n
Regarding her alleged claims that I coerced her into having sex several times, at no point in our entire relationship did i force myself sa kanya, nor did i manipulate her to do things she didn’t want to do. 11/n
Some time late 2017, we’ve had conversations regarding how she feels whenever we had sex. I am fully aware of instances after sex where she would be unsure of how she felt - main reason why we agreed on not having sex if both of us are not 100% sure. 12/n
However, I take 100% accountability on any miscommunicated instance, I should’ve been more aware and more concerned of her well being. 13/n
As for her alleged claims that I was dating a minor: apart from our 1 year age gap, whatever Amanda and I had was rooted from mutual experiences (we were batchmates in UST) but more importantly, it was consensual from start to finish 14/n
I always make sure I’m fully aware of how serious these issues of abuse in all forms are, how they can happen to anyone, and how crucial it is to take accountability for one’s own actions as well as making a conscious effort to do so every single day. 15/n
The only things I still hold myself accountable for are the times when I failed to empathize with your feelings and communicate properly. 16/n
I also would like to apologize once again for the childish acts that I’ve done in the past such as making that ‘break-up sex’ joke (which i immediately apologized for, i have no other explanation to excuse that immature joke and i take 100% responsibility for it), 17/n
that one time where i jokingly groped you when we were watching a movie at your place (i wasn’t reading the room and it was childish, I apologize.) and that one time where i accidentally shouted at you in public when i was trying to explain something to you 18/n
(again, i will not defend myself for my poor way of handling your feelings).
These acts are things that I fully regret doing and I take full responsibility for them. 19/n
These acts are things that I fully regret doing and I take full responsibility for them. 19/n
As much as I regret not doing enough to make our breakup less messy than how it turned out, it still gives you no right to falsely accuse me and recklessly brandish fallacies regarding me, my music, and how it all went wrong between us. 20/n
It was unfair of you to manipulate me like this back then, and it’s still unfair of you to keep doing behind my back until now. 21/n
At the end of the day, I realized all I can do is be open to conversation sayo @gabrieiiius. Hopefully we can finally settle any misunderstandings, discuss our grudges any further, and not leave any word of remorse unsaid until we can both healthily move on from all this. 22/n
While I haven& #39;t had the best experiences with her, I personally think she doesn’t deserve any unnecessary backlash/hate that this thread may accumulate, nor should any of her other claims against her other possible abusers be immediately condemned. 23/n
However, I will continue to support other victims like me and Gab by calling out our other mutuals that have been proven to continue their toxic and abusive behavior, as well as those who still enable them. Please don’t hesitate to DM me. 24/n
