I was manipulative in the past. I was a bitch. made fake claims. i was JEALOUS so SO jealous. I would do anything. even if my ex was a flying piece of manipulative garbage it doesn't. excuse what i did. I as a person did.

This was 10 years ago teenagers. are stupid.

I LIED. threatened my life. shit talk other. spread rumors.

Maybe. it wasnt Illegal... i wasnt doing anything BAD. and yeah my ex was and was 100%%% worst but it doesn't excuse me. you own it.

i can call him out for shit... but i can also call myself out now. both.

are equally important. not in a blaming myself way but it the way that YES my action hurt. other people not just him.. that MY actions did that.

this is not about the adult//minor thing.... that just wrong and the adult at fault end of story.

this is about all yall relationships in genral... legal drama filled relationships.

this is still important.

im never gonna force people to forgive me... i did beyond awful things... to later relationship partners friends and amazing people.

and honestly im sorry to them. they know that. we moved on... some havent but i cant help that i can only. change me

if you only known me in the past 5 years.

you seen the best of me (and i say that as someone who hates herself)

15-20 year old me was a monster....