fuck-off fathers day to my human shit of a biological dad and also my asshole step dad both father figures in my life are responsible for most of my childhood trauma thank you :D

i feel the need to explain this and no-one asked but idc

my dad used to hold me underwater for prolonged times even when he knew i couldnt breathe so now whenever im underwater for longer than like a second i go into a full blown panic attack x

my stepdad would yell at me for hours if i spoke too loud, he would also threaten violence and threaten to kick me out, so now i have an irrational fear that if im too loud even when hes not around hes gonna get me x

he also emotionally abused and gaslit my mum for 5 years until we eventually moved away. he followed us to our new house and kept guilt tripping my mum until she finally spoke to him x

my bio dad also puts me down whenever i do anything i want to do, he belittles me and says my interests are stupid so now i have a fear of sharing my thoughts, feelings, hobbies or interests with any adult ever x

he is also a huge transphobe (which is nice seeing as im trans) a hidden homophobe (again nice since im bi) , ableist, racist, sexist. hes the epitamy of a "football lad" and a tory

why am i making this thread? idk. im angry, i guess. im sick of pretending like all of the shit that happened to me was my fault like they made me believe.

two of my father figures, two of the most potentially influential people in my life have made me want to kill myself on multiple occasions. and im the one labelled with daddy issues? fuck off.

i dont like calling them my dad or step dad. theyre my father figures yes. but my bio father is not my dad. my mothers boyfriend is not my step dad.

happy fucking fathers day, assholes.