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In light of the many who came forward with stories of sexual assault, I’d like to share my own while working in the gaming industry of Malaysia... TW because it can be triggering and it isn’t pretty.
Back when I was actively hosting (a lot more than I am now), a co-host grabbed my boob while I was going through my script for a podcast with a producer. He did so right in front of him.
When he did that I remembered that I was confused and I froze up? It was a weird moment. The co-host immediately said “omg I’m so sorry I don’t know why I did that it was an accident!”
My producer looked at me and asked me if I was okay and if I wanted him to punch the assaulter. I remembered that I kinda like laughed? I didn’t want to lose my job and I was scared if i said anything I’d get in trouble so I left it.
I tried telling this to my boss and other colleagues back then and all they said was “its just a joke he was playing around you know how it is”. And I left it at that. I didn’t say or do anything because at the time I had such low self esteem and anxiety tht i might lose my job
There are a lot of other instances of nasty stuff happening behind the scenes as well. How people in production would talk about which girl they’d fuck on smoke breaks and rate them
They’d talk about how “slutty” a girl is and what they’d do to her. They’d talk about how they dress and how they’d act.
I’ve always been more modest in how I dress and they’d show me pics of models and tell me how I should be dressing. They’d comment on my body and point out what’s wrong with it
They’d rate the girls they bring onstage or to shows based on how they are or how their assets are to catch attention
Some girls would feel pressured into sleeping with other guys to get ahead. And for some like me, had rumours of sleeping with higher-ups in my company to get my job because of how I entered the scene.
I can't name and shame the person who did this to me because of how big they are and the company they are represented which could result in me losing opportunities.
But I think about this everyday. How I should have let my producer beat the crap out of him, how I should have screamed and yelled, how I should have made a police report. But I was so scared.
I'm so thankful that I am now in a company that respects boundaries and respects everyone equally. I am so very thankful.
But these problems are still happening out there... And I honestly don't know what to do about it...
But these problems are still happening out there... And I honestly don't know what to do about it...
Until today I cannot look at him or see him. When I run into him at events I get severe anxiety and it makes me want to puke when he says hi to me and gives me a hug. And for my friends to think he's awesome and being bffs to him hurts me
I've always felt so unhappy knowing that he's so successful in the gaming industry and so many look up to him...
