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hi, uhm im going to speak up na about the harassment i experienced before. it took a lot of courage for me to tweet this. this gave me so much trauma and until now umiiyak ako at nanginginig sa takot. i’m going to expose those people who harassed me.
at first i think that it wasnt a big deal. kasi tbh, madali ako magpatawad na to the point minsan kinakalimutan ko na kagaguhan na ginawa nila sakin. pero every time i remember na, oo nga pala hinarass nila ako, there’s this part of me na nandidiri pa din ako sakanila.
yung first thing na naexperience ko is USING MY PHOTOS WITHOUT A CONSENT. yes, you heard it right, WITHOUT A FUCKING CONSENT. he used my photos for wallpaper and ml avatar. eto ung mga photos na ginamit nya. it was really against my will pero hinayaan ko nalang kasi i just—
thought na pinagttripan lang ako or smth.
second thing was one of my old classmates sent my pics nung gr 7 to jirro. and one time he just showed it to some people sa school ung pic ko and i walked out bc i was really mad for exposing me. i mean those were my pics and we’re not close naman eh
++ the moment i walked out, pumunta ako sa friends ko kasi i was really crying na nun and nalaman ko din he was saying smth na bastos about me. he said to one of my friends na:
that was the time na naging uncomfortable na ako wearing shorts around him, also tuwing practices namin. i usually wear shorts but from the moment he said that, i wear pants na lang.
++ take note, he kept staring at me too. oo ramdam ko un. kaya tuwing ramdam ko na tinitignan ako, tinitignan ko din. he tends to look away pag titingin na ako. tas eto pa, he sends ss ng convo ng tropa nila. i felt uncomfortable about it sobra nung mabasa ko ung convo
the third thing was nung first practice namin for festival. i was wearing a white top na cotton so if napawisan ako, makikita agad ung bra ko kasi it was a thin clothing. kasi mainit kaya un ung sinuot ko.
after the practice, he said this to my other friend IN SECRET CONVO PA TALAGA. good thing my friend was able to take a ss of the convo kaya kahit madelete i still have evidence. eto un sinabi nya:
and then may isa pa akong friend na sinend sakin toh:
so i felt unsafe kasi may pics ako nung gr 7 na naka shorts ako. nasa kanya ung pics ko nung gr 7 ako kasi ayun nga someone sent him those for fun pero nainis talaga ako. like nagalit talaga ako.
so after nyan, he was trying to be close with me. im friendly pero pag alam kong uncomfortable ako sa tao nilalayuan ko agad. kasi may one time na katabi ko sya. i was sitting on my chair tas sya nasa floor tas he tried to relax his arm sa thigh ko which bothered me a lot—
kaya lumayo agad ako the moment na nilagay nya arm nya sa thigh ko.
++ someone(i dont remember who) told me na he secretly takes pictures of me. pumupunta sya sa pwesto na di ko sya ma notice na he’s taking pics of me.
++ tas eto pa he told me he had a priv acc. nagulat ako kasi may sinabi sya na sana all nagpapakita ng mukha. that time i didnt know may twitter sya basta di ko alam usernames ng twt nya. tas eto ung nangyari:
i didnt plan to follow the acc kasi ayoko naman sya makita sa tl ko eh
i didnt plan to follow the acc kasi ayoko naman sya makita sa tl ko eh
tas this quarantine, i tried to follow his priv acc and he accepted my request, wondering kung anu ano sinasabi nya sakin. you may think this is lame, but for me it was THREATENING. imagine di mo alam kung anu ano na pinagsasabi na nya about you kahit sabihin nyong mukhang
compliment. pero for me, IT WAS THREATENING. you know why? kasi ginamit nya ung advantage na di ko sya finofollow para lang istalk ako bc he knows di ko naman balak ifollow sya. my account isn’t for fucking entertainment purposes. i think he probably saved my photos pa nga eh.
eto na i confronted him kasi i’ve really had enough and i cry every night pag naiisip ko un kahit sabihin ko sa sarili ko na hayaan ko na lang and i tried to act na it wasnt a big deal. ayan i was trying to be so kind while i was confronting him. ayoko kasi ng gulo—
kaya i was really trying my best na maging mabait pa din ako sakanya kahit naiilang at nagagalit na ako. i dont like getting mad. tas ayan he started to tell a story na like sobrang haba: (starting sa 2nd pic)
tas eto ung explanation nya, di ko na binasa kasi simula palang it was already a total nonsense.
wtf, emotionally tilted?? naisip mo rin ba kung ano maffeel ko? bro i felt fucking unsafe whenever im around u.+there goes my kind side again na baka mapatawad ko sya and maging friends pa. no matter how many times i convince myself to forgive him, i still feel disgusted sakanya.
tas after niyan, triny ko nang palipasin. pero i realized after months of trying to just let it go nalang, traumatized pa din ako and i will never forget what he did. i still get nightmares na minamanyak ako. may times na i wake up crying, and those nightmares were traumatizing.
++ eto pa habang crush pa niya si bianca, he used her photos din para gawing avatar sa ml. sorry i dont have the evidence na @biancanrei. so eto sinabihan ko sya na tanggalin nya ung pic kasi first of all, WALA SIYANG CONSENT. please please ask for consent sa pag gamit ng pics—
ng iba. you boys don’t know how much we overthink na makita lang pics namin sa wallpaper or ml avatar nyo. ano kami? display?? assholes. i also remember he shared posts na walang crushback sa fb i know na ako yung tinutukoy niya. para siya elem na di na gustuhan din ng crush nya.
i tweeted this thread to share awareness, and not for clout. i tweeted this because the girls who have spoken up gave me so much courage to speak up. di man kasing lala tulad sakanila, but HARASSMENT IS HARASSMENT. NO EXPLANATION NEEDED
