Me questioning my sexuality for the one-hundred-millionth time, a thread

So technically I’m sexually attracted to only women and I’m romantically attracted to women with the occasional cute guy. Simply I’m pansexual because I like anyone for the person that they are. But I’m not comfortable to that title, I never have been. I called myself queer...

...For a good year and that didn’t work out. I felt like an outcast and like shit. I’m comfortable where I am as a person now... but not with my sexuality. I’ve always been comfortable with calling myself a lesbian because I am mainly attracted to women...

...and I always have been, but because I liked TWO boys in my entire life. But because my mother in a homophobe and I was scared that my father wouldn’t accept me (he does) I convinced myself that I was bisexual or pansexual (because I liked a trans guy) or something like that...

... Therefore, I had to be pan. But I wasnt. And I’m not. The person I miss and loved most in the whole world was a girl. The person I’m madly in love with (though she’s my crush) now is a girl. And my first “kiss” when I was four was a girl...

...also quick note, I have never been sexually attracted to men. No matter how sexy the media portrays a man to be, I still find them looking like horses, platapusses and frogs. Girls on the other hand, can be HOT my guys. The way they just exsist is hot...

... I have been in love women for as long as I can remember, but that doesn’t mean that I can’t love men. And that gets me so confused. So like someone please help. Anyone who has read this thread, plz help because I can’t date the girl I love with out finding out who I am