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I was very drunk when I was sexually assaulted. I have the ability to be blackout drunk and still awake, technically unconscious though because I have no control of my actions or an ability to gage strength to defend myself.
I was very drunk when I was sexually assaulted. I have the ability to be blackout drunk and still awake, technically unconscious though because I have no control of my actions or an ability to gage strength to defend myself.
He led me up to his room and I remmeber he spoke my home language, he was asking me questions as I slurred my responses constantly saying “I don’t live here” and saying “I want to go home” he laid me onto his bed and sat facing me.
He took off my top and bra and started playing with my breasts as he also filmed me, I tried to grab my phone attempting to message someone, I knew I didn’t wanna be in the situation, but I honestly couldn’t even fathom what to do. He knocked my phone out my hand...
And told me that he doesn’t do that social media, proceeded to film me. After this point I was passed out and the last thing I remember is him touching me inappropriately and the next time I woke up naked in my own bedroom so yeah
I haven’t ever said this publicly only because I am still in the process of dealing with it,sometimes I feel like I have sometimes I haven’t.Almost two years later... I woke up the next day to the Uni gc asking “who was the girl that got raped yesterday” “she’s probably lying”etc
A lot of you speaking up on your own experiences has acc given me the courage to speak about my own. I went to the police, they barely did anything, I didn’t wanna keep dealing with being made to feel like the peropetrator rather than the victim by the authorities.
I still have panic attacks, I still can’t watch certain shows, I couldn’t even finish the Jeffrey Epstein documentary the other day because I ended up shaking, my chest completely closing up and almost passing out. Idk what triggers it. It’s just hard sometimes.
There’s more to it all but that’s all I feel comfortable disclosing right now. To anyone whose ever been a victim you’re an extremely strong person... I did not expect this to happen to me in my 1st term of my 1st year of uni but it did.
Forgot to mention, this happened on a night that I happened to be at an accom party, I clocked I was too drunk and wanted to go home, as I walked into the corridor to leave he grabbed me and yeah took me to his room from there.
Thankyou all for your kind and encouraging words, my phone is slow now so I can’t really respond but I really do appreciate it , Thankyou guys so much and God bless you all
