I don’t talk about this a lot but my rapist killed himself.
His family blames me.
He didn’t wanna go to jail for raping me so instead he killed himself.

His mom said
He had good grades.
He had a scholarship
Said I ruined his life.

He ruined mine though.

I couldn’t shower for three months.
I refused to look at myself naked.
I smelled like rotten garbage.
Because I couldn’t bare to touch myself or else I’d have a panic attack thinking of what he did to me.

I can’t have normal relationships anymore thanks to him.

I was 16.
I got fired from my job because every time I saw a man I went into a violent panic attack and went into the break room screaming.

Don’t EVER defend a rapist.

This is what they do to people.

I’m muting this thread cause a lot of people are being gross but thank you for those who have said kind words.