A family member told me tonight that no one cares about me; they just tolerate me, and I know they were trying to hurt me & I should ignore them. But the thing is...that’s literally my worst fear. I know I’m quiet & awkward & hard to get close to. I’m also gay, and most of my...

...family hates people like me. So, that rules them out. I know my kids and my cat love me, but if they’re the only ones who don’t just tolerate me, then what does that say about me, really?

I really shouldn’t let myself when I’m this upset.

I’m just in such a bad place right now.