Idk how to say it without sounding like a moron so here we go.
It& #39;s been bothering me a lot for the past few years how I thought I might have autism, I wanted to bring it up to my therapist but we were more focused on the surface problems first. Fair enough. 1/?
It& #39;s been bothering me a lot for the past few years how I thought I might have autism, I wanted to bring it up to my therapist but we were more focused on the surface problems first. Fair enough. 1/?
Right before C hit, I was to be put on meds to stabilize me so we could check me for other things.. which didn& #39;t happen. So I was left with a blurry mind thinking what if about everything. And then it came back, what if I have autism? Everything I have links with it! 2/?
So I started doing test after test online, backed by doctors, fact checking it all. I always got a good few points higher than the "more than likely autistic" levels. I didnt feel relieved, or upset, I was neutral. I expect it, but I don& #39;t trust an internet test. Even 30. 3/?
Now here I am. Mulling over the possibility. Will it change the way I see myself? The way others see me? Will my family that I have left mock me again? I& #39;m scared, but I want, no I need, to know. Do I, or do I not? And what will it even change if I find out I am? 4/5