My celibacy took on a different meaning when I got locked down at a meditation centre that prohibited all sexual acts, including self pleasure

I pretty much believed that I'd never again feel a sexual edge after the traumatic yet beautiful experience of accidentally activating my kundalini in late 2018

So this celibacy journey was began through pain and fear... Of my own power but fear nonetheless.

I spent the entirety of 2019 feeling like 5 year kid who is totally oblivious to her sexual eingness. How liberating it was to meet a man and not have to ask myself if I would do him 30 secs into our introduction

This thread ain't even flowing and I give 0 fucks. This is the first time I'm allowing myself to express my thoughts on this... My future self knows what's up

Anyways... Although I had switched off my sacral, I did engage in two sessions of solo tantra for manifestation purposes

This was however more work than pleasure.. Though it was during these rituals that I allowed myself...for the first time might I add..to ejaculate aka squirt