Insomnia.
Lemmi make a sad thread.

THREAD!
Am sorry mom, i really am sorry. :(

The day my mom died, (16th December, 2019) she called me and said, "uko aje? Kuja uone mama yako". It was scary, her voice was such unlike her. She never said such things, like come and see me; that is through her entire 18months she had been ailing.

My heart started racing. Deep down i knew, bad news shall crack, but at the same time i was guilty for having such thoughts. So at 7:45pm, i took a mat, 2NK from Nyeri to Nairobi. Through the entire journey, i couldnt shake the thought that, something bad would happen.

When i arrived, i found my mom sleeping. So, nikamwita, nkamwambia nimefika. She told me she couldn't turn, and she had been sleeping a whooping 48hours on that one side. No one had come to see her in the last 2 days, my younger sister couldn't turn her by herself.

She hadn't eaten either....i hate my self.

I am the most stupid person on earth. Sorry guys, i am not ready to face the shit i did on 16th of december, and this thread shall remain unfinished.

Lest i kill myself.