i don't know where else to say this but i need to get some stuff off my chest so please feel free to scroll past this !!

this is truly not the loveseungss vibe and it's skz's cb season which is why i really wanna keep this in the drafts but at the same time i feel like if i dont get this out it will just not be good for me

i have been in a funk as of late, and honestly, it's got me not feeling the best. i've been doing stuff to keep my head up and get me by, but i'm getting a lot of downer moments. the anxious thoughts are not helping

it's just not very me to open up about things like this because i keep my real struggles very close to my heart in hopes that it will not affect those around me. but it's getting hard to go about life and projecting that all is well within me

because it's not

n its at these times that i tend to just go away n hide for a little bit until ive sorted things within myself. that includes closing off for a while

while i am secure in the fact that taking time off for myself isnt a bad thing and is detrimental in keeping my sanity, i just get really guilty n feel really bad about suddenly needing to burrow away in my own little bubble.

loneliness do be hittin too

tldr: local grain deals with anxiety

where are we going with this thread? i myself don't have the answer to that. i guess i just needed to be honest with myself. that i'm going through some not so good times.

the purpose of writing all this was not to draw attention but more just for me to take off some of the weight on my shoulders. if somehow, somebody ends up making it this far, please know that you're not obligated to say anything and it's okay +

+ to click away from this. id click away from my own struggles if i could whoever you are, i truly wish you the best because it sucks to be in this spot that i'm in and i hope you don't have to experience stuff like this often . thank u for even taking time to read.

i'm logging out n deleting this soon because the tl does not need more negativity. stay safe n stay cool i will be back, and by then, i will be much, much better. claiming that juice .