Sexual Assault Thread. Trigger Warning.

When I was 15 years, I went over to my boyfriend's house, he took off my blouse and I was fine, eventually he sexually assaulted me but it did not register as rape, because he was my boyfriend, I was at his house, my blouse was off etc
And even though I said no and pushed him off, I didn't do it hard enough, so guess what I thought? It wasn't rape, I was at my boyfriend's house topless and blah blah.

I left crying, and I still cant put my finger on why I was crying, was it the pain? was it my body reacting?
When I reached home, he said sorry(fr what?) and that he loved me etc, so you know what 15 year old me did? I went back, again, because my boyfriend loves me. I was sexually assaulted YET AGAIN, this time it was worse and I ran out the house. But guess what I thought yet again?
That's my boyfriend so it can't be sexual assault.
I only accepted and processed that this happened to me earlier on this year because I realize I was still affected and it was time that I own my truth.
I am 110% sure, he is not, or was not aware of the fact that he raped me.
All this to say, just because you don't *think* or can't *remember* sexually assaulting someone, doesn't mean that you didn't.
Just because your friend said that he didn't, it does not mean that he did not.
Just because the woman/girl put herself back in a situation with you/your friend does not mean that you/he did not sexually assault her before.
I work in this field and it took me 8 years to accept and process that I was raped, and I have all the knowledge and language.
So think about the women who don't have that wealth of knowledge. How are they going to process that?
Sexual assault is not just a random man coming out of the bush and raping you, its way deeper than that.

Take accountability and stop enabling your friends.
Goodbye.
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