Already feel summer kind of slipping away. It& #39;s mid June, so nothing to do with the weather, but the fun summertime activities aren& #39;t gonna happen. Lots of people going on vacation right now here, all traveling to higher risk places than this...

I guess if you watch fox news or just the local Sinclair owned stations, it might seem safe? They& #39;ll be bringing it back.
At least most of my fun activities are stuff like camping, fishing, swimming and boating, but cookouts, parties and bonfires are not likely.

If we had tried harder and/or longer it might have worked out that my kids could have a nice summer, that I could see my friends once or twice. Gone now. The economy was too important. I have to keep my kids safe. Looks like I& #39;ll be homeschooling or sending to a tiny school

Already feels like I& #39;m drowning in "mom summertime bad feels" and I& #39;ve got at least two months to go. May not send them for a long time, the not knowing one way or the other makes it worse. "Once the sickness goes away"...but I don& #39;t know if it will baby https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😢" title="Weinendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Weinendes Gesicht">

Everything has been going wrong too. I& #39;ve dealt with enormous loss since January, one after another so quickly I can barely process it before another loss comes. The few times I& #39;ve tried to get support have failed, people are too selfish in general and more so now.

Between raising my kids without more than a few family members, the huge losses I& #39;ve been going through, and all the absolutely insane stuff going on in the world, I may not have much of a memory of all this. Gonna try to write down some of it just to get it out of my head.

Through all of this my youngest is growing up from a newborn baby and I feel like I& #39;m missing some of it and certainly not enjoying it enough. Not enough time, not enough pictures. Every day is a giant list of chores I muddle through.