Thread on why one must not commit suicide. Based on my life experiences.
1. When I chose nation over Marxism, my father disinherited me. I walked out of my parents' home in 1997. Overnight, went from upper middle class or even wealthy to lower middle class.

2. Total landed property that my father owns in land-scarce Kerala is approximately 4 acres worth at least Rs 10 crore. I could have pretended to be a Marxist to get my 1/4 share but didn't. Lived in rented apartment in Delhi and enjoyed every moment of freedom from dad's prison.

3. Met a Brahmin girl and we lived together for a year. After we decided to get married, requested parents to come for the wedding. Dad said, "BJP is the backdoor for Brahmins to come back to power in Kerala. We cannot support your decision to marry a Brahmin girl."

4. Dad phoned all relations in Kerala not to attend my wedding. He said, "The girl is a chalu type. Delhi is full of such girls. She has trapped my son." He spread so many rumours about the girl that many of my relations and friends believed him.

5. The girl's family was understandly upset. How could they allow their only daughter to marry a guy with such an obnoxious family. My girlfriend's mother threatened to go and live in an ashram if she married me. So she backed off. It was the lowest point in my life.

6. At exactly the same time, my company asked me to take a transfer to Kanpur. I refused so I was let go. So no girl, no job, no parents. It was my Brahmin friend who showed me how meditation could help, at Paramahansa Yogananda's ashram in Delhi. Depression lifted at once.

7. In Lutyens media, Kolkata Marxists troubled me ceacelessly. But thanks to the belief I had in a higher power and in destiny, I gave it back to them. I missed out on years of salary hikes, promotions and overseas trips, but I didn't bend.

8. I had powerful friends in Delhi Police. One of them offered to send some of the Kolkata Marxists to orthopaedic ward for life. It was tempting but since I believed in Karma, I declined. These Marxists should thank Paramahansa Yogananda that they are still living normal lives.

9. I eventually became a defence analyst with the Russian state media that gave my career the traction it required. Now I have the freedom to write on nationalist and Dharmic issues. Get a great deal of satisfaction when people say they became nationalist after reading my views.

10. That's why you should not resort to suicide. It's a huge loss for the nation. I was so depressed after losing my GF that I walked in front of a speeding EMU at New Delhi ralway station. I didn't plan to die but didn't care if the train hit me. The train missed by inches.

11. Had I died that day, I'd never be able to expose the Lutyens media, do the Bengal Famine story which sparked a revival in studies on British atrocities in India, or write on all the beautiful topics on Hindu history that people love.

12. Compared with Sushant Singh Rajput, I'm nothing. He had more brains, better looks, more popularity and a whole lot more opportunities to serve India. A single tweet of his could reach more people than 100 of my stories. He should have hung in there.

13. India is such a big country - it has opportunities for eveyrone who is willing to work hard. If that doesn't work, one could move overseas although I wouldn't recommend that for everyone as it comes with its own set of problems - of loneliness and racism especially.

14. Suicide is no solution; it merely takes your issues to the next life. Whenever I'm depressed, I listen to Osho or Sadhguru. It immediately lifts my mood.
Here's the inimitable Osho:


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