I have been so burned out from working as a nurse on the covid floor & feeling gaslighted by a large majority of the country & absorbing the grief of knowing the death toll in this country has been brushed aside that I realize now I was in a dissociative state for two months.

I was barely speaking with my partner, barely eating, barely sleeping. Ignoring phone calls from family & friends. Focused solely on the events around me & in constant fear of my family being exposed. Constant fear of being exposed at work. Feeling disposable as a nurse.

The supervisor on the unit ive been on for the last three months said it best, it’s not that we are *going* to develop ptsd after covid, we already have. What we have to find are ways to cope through it.