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๐๐ฎ๐๐ผ - ๐ฏ๐ฎ๐ป๐ด ๐๐ฒ๐ฑ๐ฎ๐บ
haechan's fingers hovered above the keyboard, just inches away from the letters of your name. he closed his eyes and muttered a curse, telling himself, ๐ฏ๐ฐ, ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฅ๐ฐ ๐ช๐ต, ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฆ๐ค๐ฉ๐ข๐ฏ. ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ต๐ถ๐ฑ๐ช๐ฅ. https://twitter.com/alileely/status/1269724051427098625
haechan's fingers hovered above the keyboard, just inches away from the letters of your name. he closed his eyes and muttered a curse, telling himself, ๐ฏ๐ฐ, ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฅ๐ฐ ๐ช๐ต, ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฆ๐ค๐ฉ๐ข๐ฏ. ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ต๐ถ๐ฑ๐ช๐ฅ. https://twitter.com/alileely/status/1269724051427098625
but in the end, his curiosity got the best of him and he ended up typing your name. the secondhand shock at his own actions threw him back against his seat. long after the page had loaded, he released a breath he didn't even know he was holding.
softly, he whispered out +
softly, he whispered out +
your name, letting it fall from his lips. and then a sigh, as he stared at your picture โ that beautiful smile that he'd always adored, and the man beside you in the place where he had once stood.
he shut his laptop, pressing a hand against his face. he couldn't bear looking +
he shut his laptop, pressing a hand against his face. he couldn't bear looking +
at anything right now because, if he looked around his little apartment, he knew that he would only see ghosts of your presence, lingering behind like an afterthought.
but even in the inky blackness of his closed eyes, he could clearly see every single detail +
but even in the inky blackness of his closed eyes, he could clearly see every single detail +
of your face โ the creases by your eyes whenever you smiled, the blush on your cheeks whenever he flirted with you, the way your lips would form into a pout when he teased you way too much.
haechan wondered if he had gone too far with the teasing. or maybe your smiles +
haechan wondered if he had gone too far with the teasing. or maybe your smiles +
had stopped becoming genuine, or the flirting wasn't working anymore. but one day, you just said you wanted to break up. no reason given.
yesterday, you had been laughing over dinner, and haechan had even danced you to the tune of ๐ช๐ด๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ด๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ๐ญ๐บ?
yesterday, you had been laughing over dinner, and haechan had even danced you to the tune of ๐ช๐ด๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ด๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ๐ญ๐บ?
so what really went wrong? did he make a misstep during that dance? did he make some sort of joke that rubbed you the wrong way? was that enough to make a person leave someone they claimed to love?
there was an ache in haechan's heart that wouldn't go away. no matter +
there was an ache in haechan's heart that wouldn't go away. no matter +
how much alcohol he drank, or useless stuff he bought, or places he traveled to, or lips he kissed.
everything reminded him of you โ so heartbreakingly vivid that he could swear he still had you. he wondered if there were times you felt that way, too.
everything reminded him of you โ so heartbreakingly vivid that he could swear he still had you. he wondered if there were times you felt that way, too.
did you toss and turn at night, unable to sleep without the sound of his voice lulling you into dreamland? did the guy in your picture ever cook you ramen, and you would feel like something was missing because it wasn't the way he made it?
does that guy know +
does that guy know +
the way you like your coffee โ white or brown only, with milk and whipped cream? does he know that you loved shrimp but are too lazy to peel it, so he would have to do it for you? that you loved sleeping at hotels and going on long drives and dancing in the sparklers?
had he learned all the twists and turns of your personality, all the things that made you happy and sad and angry, all the little habits and quirks that you had never noticed that you had?
just the thought of that hurt him โ someone else doing all the things that he +
just the thought of that hurt him โ someone else doing all the things that he +
loved doing for you. all the things that he thought he would be able to do for you for the rest of your life, and all the smiles that he had wanted to put on your face.
finally looking up, he turned towards the clock and saw that he had lost two hours.
finally looking up, he turned towards the clock and saw that he had lost two hours.
again, he had spent hours crying. ever since you left, haechan noticed that he had been losing time often as he became immersed in thoughts and memories of you โ the only place where he could ever have you again.
and along with memories he wished he could forget and dreams that made him wish that he would never wake up, the haunting question lingered, hanging like cobwebs:
๐ธ๐ฉ๐บ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ช๐ต ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ?
๐ธ๐ฉ๐บ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ช๐ต ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ?
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