Since we ranting, MIGHT AS WELL KEEP IT GOINGhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="👁" title="Auge" aria-label="Emoji: Auge">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="👁" title="Auge" aria-label="Emoji: Auge">

a topic I have in mind rn is how I& #39;m somehow managing to close my feelings (in a romantic sense) and I just think its one of my greatest gifts... almost like a blessing, let me tell yall why I think about it this way

so you know how people be falling in love, but then something goes wrong in the relationship, and they break up = feeling heartbroken and sad for quite some time.

with me it& #39;s different cause for some reason I& #39;m confident i& #39;ve built a barrier to prevent that from happening

i& #39;ve had momentshttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="👁" title="Auge" aria-label="Emoji: Auge">with certain guys in the past, and it amazes me how i never really felt anything towards them, BUT when I felt like I was starting, I can easily block it from happening. idk how my brain does it but its actually wonderful for many reasons:

1). I hate commitment, so a relationship will never develop like this, which is a win for me.
2). sometimes you just want a small adventure with no compromises, and when you call it off, it& #39;s amazing to feel absolutely nothing
3). you aint never gonna experience a heartbreak

idk if this could be considered as being "heartless" or "emotionless", but in a sense, it& #39;s good for your own mental health right?

I mean... by willingly closing yourself off and not allow feelings to develop = there wont be any sadness when it comes to romantic activities

In conclusion, I& #39;m destined to live the h0e life just enjoying the moment with whomever im at, no commitments or anything of the sort. Just have fun and live it up until you get bored.

WHEW! aint that a concept oomfs

*****THIS DOESNT APPLY TO MY BL STORIES, JUST TO MYSELF IRL SITUATIONS. I do be getting emotional and sentimental af over my BL stories and boyshttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥺" title="Pleading face" aria-label="Emoji: Pleading face">, but thats because I allow it to happen.

Fictionhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="✅" title="Fettes weißes Häkchen" aria-label="Emoji: Fettes weißes Häkchen">
Real Lifehttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="❌" title="Kreuzzeichen" aria-label="Emoji: Kreuzzeichen"> WE DRAW THE LINE THERE SJSJSJSJ