i know i shouldnt complain about neet getting postponed when the whole world is dying but i have been dreaming about post neet since the last almost 3 years now and i have been d*ing in stress since last year and i REFUSE to do it more it's not possible for me to continue

with the same pace and energy i cannot solve the same books and sheets for 8774358787589th time again i cannot read anymore i want to f*cking live LET ME LIVE DO I NOT DESERVE TO LIVE LIKE A NORMAL TEENAGER PLS TELL ME

i didnt attend my farewell, left my school after 10th, lost 3738787637862378 friends, lost a twitter acc with over 3k followers, LOST MY HOBBY OF READING, messed up my menstrual cycle, almost lost eyesight AND YOURE TELLING ME TO CONTINUE DOING THIS

I WAS 16 AND I USED TO DREAM ABOUT BECOMING 16 ALL MY LIFE I THOUGHT I WOULD GET MY FIRST KISS AND CELEBRATE LIFE BUT I WAS FUCKING CELEBRATING SCORING 600+ AND GETTING RANKS LIKE FUCKKKKK I WASTED BEING 16

ok to get back i dont really mean any of this tbh i never EVER complained about it before because yes 600+ >>>>>>>>>>>>>> getting your first kiss

i was KILLING it when i was 16 i was ending men <3 and its ok my school was utterly trash and traumatising and i has fake friends and it's better that i lost them and farewell is overrated anyways bc i have only abusive memories from that school

its not fair for me to say this bc i made compromises with my own will and i lived so so so happily during the last 2 years yes happy in stress but there is no coaching now and i have to sit with my thoughts all day and it is not possible to study and not d*e in anxiety

if u see this tweet and wonder why is this girl having a breakdown in public, welcome to my account <3

it is okay i am okay i will go back and study the same shit all over again goodbye i will feel better after i score 600 again yes

ok no i want to be allowed to date i want to be allowed to watch movies shows use social media i want normal life again PLEASEE

logging out since noone cares + if mom finds out im here i will be k worded <3